Azzzerrrrrrr's Journal

Gerard walked down the empty hospital hall to the room where they had put his precious Frankie. It seemed almost eerie, to go from the crowded area of the reception desk, through the loud childrens ward to practical silence, it just didn't seem to fit. He shoes came to a halt when he saw Franks name written on the door, taking a deep breath he opened it, as he did, four pairs of eyes glared round at him, giving him the impression that this was all his fault... Hell... Who was he kidding, of course this waas his fault, if he hadn't walked out on him in his time of need, Frank wouldn't of overdosed, and he wouldn't be in this hospital bed and they'd be at home in thier own bed, with fluffles. A silence stretched between them which seemed to last an eternity.

"Um... " He cleared his throat. "I-I'm Sorry... " Tears started to well in his eyes "I... I really didn't mean for any of this to happen" Gerard looked down and let the tears run freely down his face, he brought a hand up to wipe away the tears, but someone beat him to it.

"Hey, C'mon Bro. Every couple has arguments, you didn't expect this to happen and I doubt Frankie will blame you. He loves ya too much." Mikey said gripping his brothers shoulder. Gerard embraced the comfort and hugged him tightly letting the tears flow even harder.

"I don't want him to die Mikes" Mikey looked round at the rest of the band and Alicia. Mikey sucked in a big breath

"He's not gunna die. We're not gunna let him" Gerard let go of his brother and wiped his eyes, and looked down at his boyfriend. He walked over to the hospital bed and sat down, whilst taking Franks hand in his.

"Dude, we'll leave you in peace with him" Bob said as he put a comforting hand on Gerards shoulder whilst ushering everybody out the door.

"Frank I don't know if you'll be able to hear me, but please, please, don't die... Please Don't die" Gerard started crying again, and leant onto Frankie's chest to hear his heart beat. Gerard started sobbing harder letting his black hair fall into his face masking his view of everything.

"Gee?" Gerard heard a sleepy voice from above him. He shot up to see Frank looking at him with his big brown orbs.

"Frank! Baby! Your okay! Oh my god" He leant down and kissed him fully on the lips, Frank made a groan of protest.

"Gee, Seriously, they have camera's everywhere" Frank smirked as Gerard looked disappointed, but sat up as far as he body would let him and pecked the older man on the nose.

"Frank, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to leave, I didn't mean for any of this to happen." Fresh tears started to well up in his eyes again.

"Gerard S'not your fault, it's mine with my stupid insecurities. I knew you would come back becuase of the dog and the fact that you live there, but i still went and did it" Frank 'eskimo kissed' Gerard then pecked him on the lips. "I love you though, for all your faults and for all your greatness" Gerard smiled and kissed Frank back

"And I love you, even if you just tried to kill yourself, Now Hurry up and get better, Fluffles misses you!"